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After my amazing "mini get away" week-end with Kevin last week, I felt ready to take on the world........well.....all I took on was weight!!!!
I didn't sleep well Sunday night, I woke up tired and cranky on Monday morning and the rest of the week just seemed to follow along those same lines. As the week wore on, my mood just got progressively worse! The amount of snow falling didn't help to put me in a better mood. Have I mentioned, I HATE WINTER! I can't wait for it to be over!
Of course, when I'm tired and cranky I EAT! I was too lazy to cook supper twice during the week and so we ordered take-out. When I order take out, even the better choices are not fantastic IYKWIM.
Then I ate some leftover christmas Chocolate eggies (damn those little f*#&ers are tasty). I had bread and peanut butter as a snack instead of fruit and didn't track for 2 days!!
I had officially fallen off the wagon!!
My mom asked me if I was going to go to Weight Watchers this week. I had expected to get my 5% weight loss reward this week and realizing that due to my crappy food choices I wouldn't get it, I was tempted to say no.
That would have been the easy way out. I messed up, I failed......again!
Instead what I did surprised even me! I decided to go & "face the music".
Saturday morning even before going to Weight Watchers I hauled my fat behind off the ground and back up on the wagon.
I took a nice walk over to my meeting and got on the scale. I gained 0.4lbs. I wasn't surprised. The Weight Watcher lady didn't laugh at me, didn't wag her finger at me and didn't say "I told you so!!". She smiled and said....."some weeks are harder than others. Today is a new day and you can start over!"
I stayed for the meeting and by the end I felt less guilty and much less like a failure. I walked home with a bounce in my step!
I still have alot of work to do. I need to find better ways to deal with fatigue, anxiety and lonliness. I know food can't be the answer, but I haven't yet found something to take it's place!
I am definitely a work in progress! I am still a rough draft, but at least now I am starting to have a better idea of who I aspire to be!
These are the challenges I'm setting for myself for 2011:
1. to loose 1lb each week for the next 52 weeks. Hopefully, I will be back on track next week
2. to blog at least once each week to show my progress. DONE
3. to incorporate a minimum of 90mins of physical activity each week. I only did 25mins this week but I am trying to continue to increase this number next week.
4. to make a point of telling the people around me that they are important to me and that they are loved on a regular basis. DONE
5. to spend more quality time with my daughter. DONE
6. to meditate at least 10mins each day. DONE
7. to raise a minimum of 2000$ for the August 2011 Week-end to end Women's Cancers. I have raised 320$ so far.
8. to buy more local produce and meats and eat less processed foods. DONE by monitoring labels and asking questions.
9. to recycle more diligently DONE by not only recycling in the house, but also in my daycare.
10. to smile more!!!!!! DONE
Week 1: 233lbs
Week 1: 233lbs
Week 2: 228lbs
Week 3: 225.8lbs
Week 4: 224.4lbs
Week 5: 222.4lbs (total weight loss so far 10.6lbs)
Week 6: 222.8lbs
